That wasn't a typo! Since the beginning of the year, I have certainly had an inner revolution! Yes, I know, its only been 6 days, but indulge me here, please. I have noticed changes in myself and a drive to keep those changes and further better myself like never before. I have thrown myself into mommy-ing and housewivery and wife-ism the past few years, and I noticed that I was so wrapped up in everything that 1.) Everything I did was just mediocre, and 2.) I forgot about Me-ery. (Like those made-up words, dontcha?) When you have so many things expected of you, its really easy to forget that each of them, while incorporated day-to-day, are very seperate things. Kind of like school. Sure, you can try to be "good," at school, but being good at all the individual subjects is a completely different story. Doing what I do on a daily basis is mostly a balancing act. So, in 2013, I'm resolving to spend more time on bettering myself as a mother, wife, and as a person in general. One at a time, of course.
I've been striving to keep my house clean(er). I am NOT a nasty person, but I am one that once things get out of hand, I throw my hands up and wait until the kids are asleep and I have the energy to get everything back in order. I've realized I have a touch of OCD. I cannot handle dishes in he sink anymore, things HAVE to be a certain way, the poor boys must think I'm crazy because if everything isn't lined up and in the exact spot it needs to be, I fix it immediately. You might think, hey, awesome! I would love to have a clean house all the time! ANK! Wrong! You're house is never clean, even when its spotless. And just because you want something done perfectly doesn't mean you have an endless supply of energy and drive to dedicate to it. And when you don't have those things, and it can't/won't get done, its like you're mind won't stop harassing you. It's really frustrating. However, now that I am getting a handle on things, its not so out of whack! I'm feeling much better and more confident about it.
The boys have actually been (mostly) on their best behavior the past week. They started going to bed a lot easier, I no longer have to play soothing music or go sit with them till they go to sleep. Its such a change! I'm also being more active with them and trying to change things up more often. We try different activities and I make sure I actually do ALL of it with them instead of using it to occupy their time. They have really grown and learned so much the past year, and they are constantly amazing me with what they can do. My jaw hits the floor daily, and they are usually making me laugh with the funny stuff they picked up. They are only this little for so long, and I'm truly enjoying it. They won't come for kisses and hugs and lovies for too much longer:(
I was the girl who swore up and down I wasn't going to gain 100lbs and let herself go once she got married and had kids. Dinner would be on the table at 5:30 sharp, and I would do all of the housework, deal with the kids, and still have time and energy to put into my husband. Yes, I know, 50's stepford wife, I got it. Well, HAHAHAHAHA! Life happened! I didn't gain 100lbs, but I did gain quite a bit (Thank you 2 kids, a car accident and depo!) Working it off is HARD, harder than it really should be, but my metabolism sucks and sometimes, I just lose all motivation. This year, I've already done better at taking care of myself. Watching my portions, eating healthier, and trying to do some cardio in door. It gets dark too soon for me to go running, and HELLO!? I live in freakin San Antonio. Not exactly the best place to walk around at night. I have also put in the effort to make sure I wasn't just presentable, but "dressed up," for the hubby. For one, it makes me feel better, and he likes the extra effort, too! He deserves it. He works hard and its the least I can do for him. And I've always HATED taking off my makeup at night. Like, its the WORST chore int he world for me, and idk why. But, I've done it every night! Again, Yes, I know, its only day 6, but give me a break! A routine is a routine and I have to encourage myself! lol.
So, there ya go. My revolution to better myself. I've made other resolutions, saving more money (doing well on that one, but we will see), keeping in touch with family better, stuff like that. I'm hoping this year is "different," that I can keep up with them all. I know it will be a workout, but hey, you only live one, right? And hey, I also resoluted (is that a word?) to try a new recipe and blog about it at least once a week! Can't wait to see how that goes!
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